I keep wondering, just as you might have wondered...why did I sign up for the Marathon again? I think it every day, and everyday the answer's the same...I want something to shoot for, to work for, to prompt me to take control of my body and say "I am in charge, now get your butt outta bed!" I've said it before and I'll say it again...life throws so many things at you, it's nice to be able to say "this is what I'm gonna do now DO IT!" I think I felt antsy, I had just broken my hand wanted to laugh at adversity and say "You're not taken me down, I'm gonna sign up for the Marathon and there's nothing you can do about it!" "I'M IN CHARGE!"
So sometimes there are curve balls thrown into the mix, then what do you do? I dunno, it's easy to let discouragement in, and self-doubt, and comparisons...all of those ugly words weave their way into the looms of your soul...and sometimes you can pull them out before they shape your tapestry. I ran 5 miles 2 Saturdays in a row, my knee bothered me both times, and now I can't even run 2 miles without this blasted knee. I think maybe with some rest, but I can't rest, I hafta train. I'm lookin for answers.
I am grateful for different, eternal perspectives...putting your life back into focus. I was able to spend some much needed time with my Dear Mother at the temple yesterday. It was such a gift, I am so grateful I was able to have that time with her. She had a PET scan a couple of weeks ago and there is concern with her thyroid and colon. She has been in remission for 1 1/2 years and her hair has grown back and her energy is mostly back, but I know she will never be the same, her love and compassion and gracious kindness couldn't help but grow...I just don't want to see her become frail again...PLEASE PRAY FOR MY MOM:)
I am so grateful for my mom. I feel like any time I have with her is bonus time. Time I am so thankful I have. I want to be like her, she has so much love, unbelieveable love, to give. I am so blessed, I don't know what I ever did to be to blessed to have such a great mother...and father, and in-laws and husband. I know she would do anything for me and my family. She has shown great courage and I know my dad has given her great support and love to her.
On the bright side, Mr. L signed up for the Marathon and really kickin BUTT!!! He ran 5 miles in 38 minutes...I am super proud of him. Wish us luck.
8 months ago